8 weeks

the rush of trains of thoughts in my mind is overwhelming. and that's just my emotional reaction. i also have to think about the umteen hundred things i have to do logistically for july 17th. i can't wait to go to hawaii ... i need to get away anyway, and getting away with N will be faaaantastic. still wondering how my selfishness will play out in marriage. praying against it as much as i can remember. a friend once told me that the depth of one's own selfishness is revealed in marriage ... where men are supposed to epitomize unselfishness and service. i hope i can learn the easy way instead of the hard way.